Time is only a number

Well Hello Lovelies,

Apparently I have turned into one of those bloggers who write once a month and to be quite frank, well I’m kaitlyn, but to be honest I’m not a fan that I’m not writing as much as I’d like. It’s not that I don’t want to be writing. Trust me, I do. I have it penned into my to do list weekly, notice I said penned! Why in pen? Because, it’s something I do not want to take out of my weekly schedule. Unfortunately there are just not enough hours on my days off to get everything done. I try. I really do, but at the end of the day when I’m exhausted I just cannot bring up writing energies. So here I am. March 15, 2019 on a Sunday mustering the energy to write to my little Roses. Little Roses? Yeap, that’s what I am referring to you, my readers as. I follow so many different beauty artists on YouTube and they all call their followers something. Well Readers you are my Little Roses, if you don’t like it tough tomatoes. And its TOE-MOT-OES I want to sound fancy!

Let us catch up shall we? In the month of February I went back to Ohio for a few days to see my family and catch up with some friends. OH my gracious there were not enough hours in the long weekend for me to see everyone and do everything! I was so shocked how fast it went! At one point I was getting up at 4 am to get ready for my flight and then the next thing I knew I was re boarding the plane to go back to NC. It was nice to see my friends and family. It honestly felt like no time had passed at all. I missed my family so much, it felt good just to be with them and talk about what’s been going on in their life. I mean we keep in touch daily but to sit down and actually see them was just perfect. While I was in town I did something that had been on my to-do list since I moved….

I pawned my rings… Yes Roses you read that right.. SHE GONE! And I honestly could not be more happy. I had held onto them for so long because they were something I had picked out. I spent days mulling over my perfect ring set and this cute little store had them in OC. I’ll spare the long drawn out proposal story but I kept them because to me they resembled the memory I had of everyone at the beach and the fun I had once had. But when I went home I realized I hadn’t looked at them since the day of the split and I was okay with that. I felt someone else in the world needed the set more than a storage box did. If I could take anything I reflected on during the trip or even the month of February is that time is a tricky thing I have yet to grasp and I say this because there are days that hit me and I have no idea where the time has gone.

To put it into my perspective it has been over a year that Trouble and I have been together… A YEAR! Already? So technically we started hanging out in October of ’17, granted I didn’t get the fancy girlfriend title until April of ’18, but the fact I’ve known him over a year already has blown my mind. I’ve been living with him for 9 months and it feels like yesterday I was driving down here with my sister in the car. There are days I realize I have no idea how much time has passed and how quickly it disappears in the blink of an eye. It really has me appreciating the little breathable moments I have. Those are the moments I just appreciate all that is around me and take it all in. Take in the way Trouble smirks when he is up to no good, or the way my mom and dad tell stories making sure I get all of the details, and how my sister will study her arse off one second and in the same breathe will turn around and start conversing about something else. When I was in OH I tried to absorb everything around me and spend as much time with my family as humanly possible. I didn’t want to go to bed in fear of missing something, kind of like when you’re a child and know there’s something going on but you have to be in bed and you’re afraid to miss all of the fun. That feeling was me all weekend. I talked from sun up to sun down, which if you ask my family and friends they’ll tell you it’s completely possible, I never took a breath. Mentally I was torn between realizing I was there and had not been in 8 months and remembering that I was leaving at the end of the weekend. It was a weird mind game, realizing you had not been home in 8 months but also feeling as if no time had passed at all.

I’m already half way through March and I can hardly remember the end of February. The last 9 months have been a complete blur. But what I do remember from them day in and day out is that I am unquestionably, irrevocably happy. I know I say that a lot, and I’m not saying it to convince you, because well I could care less if you believe me or not. I say it because every day I am in shock and so beyond thankful for this life. I can remember looking back two years ago and how unhappy I was and I thought that was just how my life was going to be, I had accepted it. I thought that everything was okay, I was just okay. But living this part of my life, embracing every adventure, I have learned that I was miserable in comparison to where I am now. I don’t think I can ever wrap my head around it, but that’s okay. I have the rest of my life to appreciate, to enjoy and to love my life.

Well Readers I’ll end this update with a little Sprinkle.. I have some big news happening in the month of April and I cannot wait to share it with you! And no I am NOT pregnant, so don’t ask! But I’ve got some fun things planned, I mean I have to, it’s my birthday month!

TTFN

Ta Ta for Now Roses

Kaitlyn