Birds Flying High

You know how I feel. Reeds driftin on by you know how I feel.

I’m currently flying in an airplane on my way to Salisbury, MD. As I am sitting here staring out the window, watching the sun set behind the clouds. I can hear Michael Buble singing in my head Feeling Good. My emotions feel like they’ve been put in the spin cycle in a dryer set for hours on end. I just left Wilmington, NC, I just left Trouble, to come visit my family. I tried taking in every moment and thing we did together, but it still went by far too fast. I’m excited to spend these next few days with my family, but they’ll be bittersweet. I got a phone call as I was waiting for this flight. I got asked to interview next week for the CS position. If I get it I’ll be back in NC by the 24th… 20 days to get everything in my life in order. Passports, safes, dr appointments. I’m uprooting my entire life. I’ve slowly been packing everything up, but now it’s beyond crunch time. I’m scared and beyond terrified of what lies ahead of me. I’ve never been away from my family, not more than 12 minutes max! I’m excited to spend this much needed time away with my family, but I know it won’t be the last. My mom has already looked at multiple flights and Air BNB’s to stay at.

I’ve had so many people ask me if I can handle being away from my family. Honestly? With today’s technology I’m not away from them. I can FaceTime my mom daily, watch movies with my sister on HULU and even share recipes I’m making for dinner with them. I think if anything it will strengthen our relationship. We will grow stronger with distance. I know I’m moving for a man, but he’s my man.. I wouldn’t want this any other way. I couldn’t imagine just letting him go and not see where this takes us. The last four days together alone showed me a lot about us and him. I learned new things and felt spoiled by his actions. I wouldn’t be doing this if I was not ready for the adventure. I promised I’d follow whatever adventure fell in front of me.. I’d say this is an awfully big adventure.

Oh FREEDOM is mine and I know how I feel. It’s a new dawn, It’s a new day, It’s a new life for MEEEE and I’m FEELING GOOD… Do you ever listen to a song and feel it in your soul? I don’t know why I was thinking about this song. I haven’t listened to it in over a year. But singing it over in my head and hearing the end of it.. It made me realize I am going to be okay. It made me think my grandma was with me. Talking to me in song. She knew I loved singing it, it soothed my soul. But don’t worry readers I’ll definitely keep you in the loop with where I’m going.