Finding Kaitlyn

If you would have told me over a year ago I would be in North Carolina working in customer service with a new man I would’ve told you you were crazy. I was a homebody no one could entice me to move to a new land. I had family and friends close to me, I was unhappy but comfortable in my job. I was completely lost in my life but I was making do. Last year I was supposed to be married in October, that was the only thing I had really focused on. I had no career goals, no life goals, I didn’t plan on leaving my hometown anytime soon. Fast forward to today and I am sitting on lunch in the cafeteria of my new job in a new state, smiling and loving life with a new outlook. I’m happy in my life, motivated in my career, and hopelessly and endlessly in love. Yea I’m that sappy writer. I honestly didn’t really see my life going anywhere. I was living one day at a time, trying to date…and failing. Trying to do well at my job.. and really failing. So what happened?

He happened. I know you weren’t expecting to read this and think it’s all about how a boy and a girl met fell in love kind of story, but it is one of those, but it’s also so much more than that. It’s about a woman who fell in love with a man, who fell in love with herself, her career and her life. Who realized she had more potential than she thought. We’ve all read my story on how I met him, so I’ll skip that part, if you want to read it it’s a few posts earlier. But I moved. I actually sold my stuff and packed everything up in my little house and drove South. Well more my sister drove, because she has car driving control issues but that’s neither here nor there at the moment. We drove until I was in my new apartment with him. When I was told he was moving in April I honestly didn’t think I could go. Sure money was a factor but it was completely out of my comfort zone. I wasn’t sure what the future held for me, but I couldn’t just let him pass me by. I couldn’t let this man leave without knowing what could have been. I swallowed my fear packed my insecurities and loaded my car full of adventure and drove.

I’ve been in this town for over 4 months and I love where I am. I love my job and I am more motivated than ever to get to different levels within the company. I love my relationship and the man I am with. I feel seen and heard. I feel like he is my partner in everything and not just someone I come home to. My life has changed a lot. I found myself in this town and my relationship. I fell in love with art and writing again. But more importantly I fell in love with who I’ve become and every day I am owning the woman I am. I am not hiding anymore. I’m embracing all the change that’s been thrown at me. I’m driving these new roads like I’ve lived here my whole life, okay not really I still get turned around, but hey that’s what Siri is for. I’ve learned over time that I am who I am. I need to embrace the life I’m living and whatever adventure comes into my path I run with it. I don’t shy away from change and adventure I embrace it. Sure I’m nervous as hell as to what may come next, but you’re not living if you’re not a little scared. I lived life in comfort day in and day out. I had my routine down to a science and now I am shaking that routine.

Everyday I still think of my family and friends back home, but I don’t regret this decision. I would do it again in a heartbeat if asked again. Honestly, this isn’t our last stop, I know we’ll move a few more times or at least one more, and that’s okay to me. This man has done so much for me in a few months, but he’s also shown me who I am again and for that I could not thank him enough. I’ve become that sappy writer who writes about her man, yea so sue me. He’s my partner in crime, travel companion and my forever. I found myself this year, 2018 was a wild ride, but I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us.